Its been a busy week.  In bed at 8pm three nights running. Up at 5am three morning in a row.   I suffered severe agraphobia for two years.  For the first year i didnt leave my bedroom.  i stayed in one room for a whole year.  It took effort to branch out into other rooms.  It is still an effort but i try to do it everyday.  Some days it is too difficult.  I dont beat myself up.  I just accept it for that day, and try harder the next.
  Going outside is such a trial.  i am doing it, but its not enjoyable.  Being outside, talking and interacting with people and the world, zaps my energy.  But little bits of me are definitely out there. 
  The rewards are massive.  Im meeting people.  Making friends (slowly).  Life is not as lonely as it has been.
 But sweet jesus im tired out.
Talk more tommorow.
i will tell you about the events that led to my sudden dissapearance from the world..
Not many people missed me!